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Saturday, December 31, 2016

Stepping Stone

I have come across many articles that talk about how we meant to be great and to do great things.
That philosophy of self-centeredness has also penetrated Christianity. Many best-selling modern Christian authors talk a lot about how God has a great plan for your life: health and wealth.

Sunday, November 13, 2016

Sin Lies: Not a big deal

This post is a part of Sin Lies series from First and Second Blog.
Sin lies in many ways. It doesn't matter, is one of the lies. Nobody sees my sin. Sin is not a big deal. This is a minor thing. I can stop whenever I want. I just need to give in once because of the special circumstances; then I'll get it out of the system. One time will not affect me. I cannot deal with that unless I give into the sin.

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

While we are....

Yesterday, a historic event took place: USA presidential elections. As soon as final results were announced, many flooded social media to express their opinions. People showed various types of reactions: from fear to excitement, from despair to hope, from love to hate.

Sunday, October 2, 2016

They Notice: How Church Children Pay Attention to Adults at Church

One time at church a young girl, she is twelve, approached me. She said, "I really like your scarf. It looks nice on you. It's nice." I smiled and thanked her for the compliment. A Few weeks later, I saw her at church. She was wearing a hat. Her mother doesn't practice head covering. Her father is a deacon at my current church. He views head covering matter as a personal choice. Unfortunately, I didn't have the opportunity to talk to her about the head covering.

Saturday, September 3, 2016

When Faith Meets the Trials

I have reached the point where the attacks come from every area of life. I am not going to describe the intricate details here. Because if I will go into the details, I'll start crying. I can say that I was never that close walk away from my faith and from the Lord.

Friday, August 12, 2016

Gracious God (Dropping Out)

I tried my hardest not to give up. I didn’t want to drop out of school in the middle of the program. Last semester went so well. That winter semester started well. I was on top of the world.
It all started going downhill in February. At first, I became overwhelmed with school work. I remember getting an assignment back. The grade was 3/10-30%. After that, I was failing most of my classes. I became emotionally overwhelmed and started skipping classes.

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Gracious God

I am so blessed to be featured in the compilation article on Purposeful Faith website.

I tried my hardest not to give up. I didn’t want to drop out of school in the middle of the program. Last semester went so well. That winter semester started well. I was on top of the world.

It all started going downhill in February. At first, I became overwhelmed with school work. I remember getting an assignment back. The grade was 3/10-30%. After that, I was failing most of my classes. I became emotionally overwhelmed and started skipping classes.

Read more on Purposeful Faith 



Sunday, July 31, 2016

27 Things About My life

This May I turned 27. Today I decided to share with you twenty-seven interesting things about my life. Many people find those facts quite interesting

Thursday, July 14, 2016

Rejected

People don't discuss that. Churches avoid the subject: rejected people. There are different types of rejections. Some are open. Others are not. I have experienced multiple rejections. My worst pain was caused by Christians. In this post, I decide to touch 

Thursday, June 30, 2016

Hunger Games Series: Review of the Trilogy

Few days ago I finished reading Hunger Games. The series consists of three books: The Hunger Games, Catching Fire, and Mockingjay. The books were good. If you get a chance to read them, do it. However, I will not recommend it to people younger than 13. It has some gore and violence.

Friday, June 10, 2016

Possible Move

I have been struggling with the possibility of moving to another place. I am not saying that I will be moving to another location, at least not yet. At this point, I have to wait for another year or so, perhaps another eighteen months.

Monday, May 9, 2016

Through Time and Space

It doesn't matter how hard you try to impress other people. You can spent much resources: money, time, attention, and talents. They will not be impressed. In my case, there are few people whom I have tried to impress, but to no avail. I mean they will talk to me when they have to do this. They even might give me small favors. However, upon closer look, I realize that we may know one another's names, birthdays, personal likes and dislikes, but at the same we will not be close, at least at this point.

Saturday, April 30, 2016

Like a Fog

In the past eight years I have seen more fog compare to all the previous years of my life. In Newfoundland fog can come in any season: spring, summer, fall/autumn,and winter.

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Judith, Martyred Missionary of Russia 's (Book Review and Author's Biography)

Over a year ago on of my most dearest sisters in faith, Kinuko, introduced me to the bookJudith, Martyred Missionary of Russia A True Story by Nikita Ignatievich Saloff-Astakhoff. The book describes the story of  a Jewish girl who became a Christian. Her faith had a very high cost: family, fiance, cultural identity, and ultimately her own life. The Russian name of the book is Невеста Христа (Юдифь)—Bride of Christ (Judith). You can get free version in Russian by clicking on the title.
The book consists of six different chapters: happy days of childhood, refugees, seek and you shall find, persecuted for Christ's sake, dedicated to the Lord, the youthful martyr. Each chapter has it's own style.

Sunday, March 27, 2016

Joy Indestractible

People like to make pans. Many plan their lives, including their career path.  We don’t know the future, our God does.Quite often our lives turn out not the way we expect. Quite often we experience changes that can cause much distress. Some changes are good: many aren't.  
Today I live far away from my family, on the other side of the world.It hasn’t been easy. But we know that this arrangement is the best. 

Sunday, March 20, 2016

Head Covering Reflection/Update

It has been over five years since I started to cover my head during worship. At first I covered only during the church services: Breaking of Bread, the main service, and the evening service. It lasted for about three years.
Approximately three years ago I started to cover my head during Bible Study, choir practice, choir worship leading, and Prayer Breakfast. During church cleanup I wear a head wrap.  Since 2014 I adopted a habit of having a head scarf at hand, one in my purse and backpack. Throughout the day I may throw a covering on my head whenever I need to pray. I don’t mind if people watch, although I try to find the least crowded place possible.

Thursday, March 17, 2016

Tragedies, Negativity, and Losing compassion

Someone tells us a life story. We love stories, especially from people whom we don't encounter regularly.
I love to hear stories from a lady, about her escape from Eastern Germany. Honestly, I can listen her talking for hours. She is a great testimony. Her stories, however, contain a lot of pain and trials. At some points her life was in danger.
How about books and movies? We love dangerous plots, where hurt involved. Most people will say that the plot is boring when no tragedies happen. We remember turning plot points better than the rest of the plot.
How about tragedies? We focus on tragedies a lot. We pay a lot of attention to the details. We remember bad things more than we remember good things. We may not remember how much good the person had done, or not remember the details of all the good deeds, but, one mishap, and we tend to remember it for the rest of our lives. We forgive, but not forget.
It seems like we never dwell much on good. Small things have power to spoil our days.
We love to hear about pain and trials as long as we are not part of it. As long as those stories are on pages or on movie screens, we love reading them. We cringe when those stories become part of our lives.

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

In Season for the Reason

I grew up surrounded by four seasons: spring, summer, autumn/fall, and winter. Each season has it's own characteristics by which we can recognize either of those. I apologize to my readers who live in places where there are no four seasons—equatorial and polar regions. Some places have also strange weather patterns.
We expect a season to come in due time.  Each season associates with certain things: different weather, blossom, sawing and planting, animal behavior, harvest, and holidays. If something happens during the season that is not supposed to take place, we consider it unnatural. 
The Bible says in Genesis 8:22, "While the earth remains, seed time and harvest, cold and heat, summer and winter, day and night, shall not cease": in Proverbs 26:1 it says, "Like snow in summer or rain in harvest, so honor is not fitting for a fool." 
The Scriptures also mention another seasonspiritual. He is like a tree planted by streams of water that yields its fruit in its season, and its leaf does not wither. In all that he does, he prospers, Psalm 1:3. There are times/seasons when we should yield the fruit. 
I have been thinking how the Lord appointed four seasons. Each of those seasons is marked by special features.


Winter 

Winter is the coldest season of the year.People wear the warmest clothes. Snow covers many places. Blizzards and flurries occur. In many places people doing various activities: skiing, skating, sledding, snowboarding, making a snowman, having snowball fights, and whatever else you can do with snow.
Most of the time you need to dress warm for the winter. We cover everything except faces. 
More people fall during the season because of icy surfaces. Sometimes thin layer of snow covers the ice. People walk over the surface and slip, You can end up at a hospital.
During blizzards you have to be especially careful: drive slow, don't go outside unless absolutely needed, stay away from power lines, and be prepared for power outage. 
There are no agricultural work in fields, no animals in the meadows.
In older days people relied on food that they managed to store from the harvest. People would prepare for winter by storing food. Winter is the season of waiting.   
In many cultures winter is associated with death. You look aroundnothing seems to grow many animals are hiding in their dens. Lakes look devoid of fish. Most of the trees and shrubs don't have leaves. 
However, there is life during winter. The ice is only at the top part of the water. Deep water is warm enough for fish to swim. Trees slow down their metabolism in order to conserve the energy. The animals are hibernating in their dens. Seeds are deep in the ground and some are germinating. 
During spiritual winter it looks like nothing is going on. We need more comfort during winter. Any activity requires us to gear up more. We want for it to be over as soon as possible despite the opportunities we have that are unique to the season.    
Even though we don't see it, the work is ting place to prepare for the spring. 

           

Spring

Here comes the season  which many people love. The weather warms up. The snow melts. You see firs flowers and first green leaves. Spring gives many people hope for something new. Farmers getting ready to go out in fields. The soil is ready for agriculture.
Spring is the time for new life. Animals giving birth their young. 
This season is the start for renewal in nature and for sowing the seeds. There would be no harvest without sowing. 
Spring starts with mud and bare ground, after the snow melts. Suddenly muddy puddles surround us. We see bare trees and dead grass. However, it will all change in a few weeks. 
Spring is a very busy season. It's also a season of cleaning. Most people are getting rid off their old things. The air is more fresh. Newness of life is the spring.   
First bloom comes in spring: trees, gentle, tender flowers, and shrubs. Birds are singing their song and chirping. 
Most people love spring because it brings hope and new start. Great break from winter. It also makes you looking forward to the summer.
When spring comes, at first it doesn't look pretty: puddles, wilted grass, bare ground, and mud. But we know that new plants will come
Most people love spring for its freshness and newness. We anticipate summer while enjoying the spring. 
Spiritual spring is the time for renewal and fresh start. We often start new projects. We're actively sawing the seeds. We feel refreshed and well-rested. It is a lot of work. If we miss sawing, we have to wait for the next season. People don't expect harvest/results during sawing. Sometimes we expect harvest during spring. Quite often the season is to short or too long. Spring is the season for intensive work that brings results in the future. 







Summer

In many cases when we hear the word summer we think of heat. Sometimes the heat becomes so intense that we sweat. Summer is the time for hard work in the fields. During summer we enjoy some harvest, including berries. The harvest during summer is tender. But it's not the main harvest. Summer has the largest amount of flowers.
Summer has long warm days and shorter nights. Many crops are under attack from different pests. Plants also need to be watered. Some places experience droughts. Sometimes summer is so hot that people stay away from direct sun. Doctors recommend to drink more water. People apply sunscreen. During summer we protect ourselves from heat and sun. Insects also become aggressive and sting. We welcome summer rain with joy. 
Summer is the season of intense growth. Plants need many nutrients. Gardens, fields, and patches  require much work: watering, weeding, and other responsibilities.  Watering has to be done at the right time, otherwise we can damage the leaves and can kill the roots. 
During spiritual summer we face much heat. We see much growth and development. 
We can do many different things during summer. While many people use this time for taking holidays, there is a lot of work in nature. Bees are busy in meadows and fields.  Birds and animals are raising new generations. Many animals eat a lot of food. The fat serves as energy source for winter. 
I remember how my grandmother and I used to pick up bugs from potato plants during summer. My grandfather used to say that summer is the most dangerous season—so many tings can destroy crops. We worked hard during summer in the garden and small land plot that we had. Sometimes we spent ore than eight hours per day working on the land. 
Spiritual summer involves a lot of work and a lot of attacks. Summer is the season of hard work.  We face many uncomfortable situations that require us to act fast, otherwise we will lose the harvest. We need to work hard. Sometimes we will get hurt and we need time to heal. It looks as if everything going on at once and life gets very intense.


Monday, February 15, 2016

I am Falling Away in the Dark

First, I would like to apologize to all my readers, whether you check my blog regularly or a new guest for not writing regularly. I usually post two times a month. This year I did one post for January and the current post is for February.
This is not going to be my usual style post. You will get anything new out of it. It's not about spiritual lessons or how to do certain things. This post tells you what I have been going through emotionally.
I have been falling away in the dark. Sometimes it seems as if I am on the crash course into an abyss. Other days look like I am in a darkest room. Emotionally, I am at a state of a despair, wondering why the Lord still has me on this planet. Too often I am pleading with the Lord to take me away. Most of my days I carry a heavy pain in my stomach and chest. It feels as if I were carrying lead ingots.
You know the worst part, the pain gets worse after I return from church or the Bible Study. It doesn't get worse when I read Bible at home or watch devotional videos.

Sunday, January 10, 2016

The Ambassadors

Few days ago I finished reading An Unexpected Guesta novel by Anne Korkeakivi. The book describes the ordeal of Clare Moorehouse, the wife of high-ranking diplomat, who has to organize a dinner for high ranking officials. In addition to the dinner, she has to deal with an encounter from her past, which can have drastic consequences for her family and their country. As if all of the above was not enough, her youngest son gets suspended from school for participating in anti-government activities.  
Clare is going through emotional torments. Things that she had done twenty-five years ago could destroy her life. She also has to deal with her son's situation. The book ends with the moment when Clare decides to confront her past. She also risks her reputation by defending a suspect.
This novel gives an overview of an embassy work. Every embassy has to be efficient. An embassy is a representation of the government abroad. It provides information to the residents of the country and the expats. 
In my life I had several encounters with a few embassies. Their work can provide us with some lessons.